Snow is gone. Bitsy is happy.
Now I'm ready for spring….
Ooh, and ....Mexico.... next month!!! Yay!
I've been pretty much offline by force for three weeks now, so it's time for a catch up- sorry in advance for the long blog…
So I'm no longer bored and snowed in, but I am still a bit lonely and still feeling a little psycho. I'm trying to figure out if its all from suffering heartache, or maybe shock form being completely blindsided, or just from cabin fever and all the snow- probably all o fthe above, but I am healing slowly now and I'm looking forward to the next few weeks/months-(hopefully not longer than that!) - when I'll be back to normal. It'll be so great to feel sane again. And I deeply apologize to the few that have witnessed my psychotic-ness the last month or so. Errrr….
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I'm back to a regular week of work, after a week of being snowed in and a week of vacation- I'm happy to be back but it feels pretty strange. I need normalcy now though. So its good.
..Last week of 2008 I went back home. My parents/family don't celebrate the holidays but my grandparents anniversary falls the same week as X-mas and so we always have a huge family dinner with gifts and all that jazz. Lots of fun, with the same home warmth, lovey feeling as everyone else experiences :) Best part of it was that I got to spend time and bond with my 3-month-old little couisn- hadn't seen her since she was just over a week old. It fed my baby fever for a little while, and I can hold off a bit longer- thank goodness!..
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While back home my father had his ICD put in his heart, so I spent a day at the hospital, but not under the stress that I was under the last two times he was there this year with heart attacks. It's comforting to know that he now has a lifesaving device- but still I'm crossing my fingers for no more heart attacks in 2009!
The next day my great-uncle fell and broke his neck and wasn't found for three hours- he is stable but in critical condition right now, had spinal surgery and now doctors are watching him closely. Next goal for 2009- no more hospitals, we had enough family emergencies last year to last a lifetime…
Depressing resolutions so far I know.
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For those who may not have heard, Lulu and I have decided to take a brief hiatus from burlesque. 2008 was a crazy and amazing year for us-we accomplished all of our goals and then some! But when it came time to make our New Year resolutions we realized we each had a lot of personal situations that we needed to re-organize and such- so we are focusing on those first this year. I'll be doing a couple photo projects this month (am looking for more too if anyone is interested!) I will be looking to book a few individual acts in February/March but are not planning to do another bitsy/lulu duo until the spring…
We will be back- and it'll be great, better and stronger than ever!
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Anyway the rest of my vacation was spent working on art projects- Most of them were for holiday gifts but they are taking a lot longer to finish than I expected- those of you who will be getting gifts from me- they are already late, but expect them to be later- I hope they will be worth the wait- A lot of love has been going into them! I also spent sometime re-hanging out with/working things out with a certain someone--- and that's all I have to say about that one for the moment. Pleas keep your opinions to yourself, I already know them.
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Oh I hung out with old roomie Cristi (kitti) and had a blast at a trashy dive bar watching cowboys do karaoke. Kitti introduced me to Keni and her sister Denena- who by the way is one of the most bravest people I know, so strong- I was so amazed and inspired to have met her! She's a single mother of a beautiful 3 year old boy and surviving breast cancer at 26- my thoughts and prayers are with her right now as I just found out she was admitted into the hospital with pneumonia last night.
Stay strong, we love you!
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On my last day of vacation- made a choice to finally get some ink. Lulu and Kitti held my hand and fed me food during the process, I love you girls! I've been thinking about it for a good couple of years now, have had a few solid ideas for what I wanted but was always back on forth on if I even wanted any at all. I did enjoy being in the unique non-tattooed Seattleite crowd- but I made my choice, and crossed over…ha. I don't plan on getting any more though, so I guess I'm still on the line. I'm happy with just the one. Very hidable for occasions that call for it and I can still do non-tattooed looks- work as a non-tat'd model and still do classic pin-up.
I love it.
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In honor of love, of heartbreak, of life and what makes it worth living.
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Oh and finally-
My New Year Resolutions:
- Reconnect with my true friends, stay single for a while and relearn to love it!
- Travel somewhere strange and unexpected.
- Go to ....Cali.... to see the girls twice this year instead of once!
- Make 2009 a year of new friends, new experiences and new places
- Live life to its fullest and each day do something to smile about.
- Last year was focused so much around me (my performing, pinups and my boyfriend and mines relationship and all the drama that it caused)- I'm getting pretty sick of myself! This year I'm going to live for other people, be more charitable than ever.
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If I can't keep many or any of my resolutions this year, I'm going to be sure to at least let the ones I love know I love them everyday and the ones that bring negativity to my life, I'll let go with nothing but peace and warm blessings for all the happiness they can recieve. You never know when you'll be gone or anyone else for that matter.
Life is too short and too beautiful to be bitter. No regrets, only love.
